Hate

What is hate?  Hate is when trust is gone.  Hate is when you are sad or mad more than you are happy.  Hate is when they make you cry and cry and cry but haven't a way to help you stop or haven't the motivation to try.  When hurtful things are said that can never be taken back, and no effort is put in to try and make it right.

But can you love without a little bit of hate?  If not how much hate can you have to still make it work?

Love & Hate

He tells me that he loves me, that I'm his moon and sun, and when we are together we are perfect, we are one.   But then I go away again to the hollowed halls of learning and suddenly that perfect couple seems to lack that yearning he spoke of before.  Simple things become venom and tempers rise, I didn't know something was wrong, I didn't know you were opposed, has this been happening for very long?  And when the anger dies and we talk it out things are perfect and surreal, you become the stars that light my night and I your moon and sun.  Life is perfect and I am as happy as can be.  A simple request or a misunderstanding happens again and like before the dark parts of our hearts emerge and the cycle begins anew.  Why do we play this game of love and hate?  Why do we choose to live through the tears and laughs?  Why why why? 

Well...every time I go to bed, tears or smiles, I know in my heart that I love you even in times of hate...that is why... 

College...

So last night after bowling with some friends I return to my dorm with the people I went bowling with to find some of my friends totally shit faced.  It was appalling!  On of my friends couldn't walk and needed to be carried.  Another was unable to shut up or control his thoughts and then the one I really like one of my really good friends said so truly hurtful and inappropriate things.
I do NOT care if you are drunk!  When you are drunk you say the things you are always thinking but keep to yourself, she did not do this and she was hurtful.  So I hope you had fun, I hope that one night was worth the friendship you have lost, I hope you are happy with yourself and are able to look at yourself in the mirror everyday...

Happy Day!!!

Ok so one of my friends is sick :( so I decided to make a happy post to life his spirits and make him feel less crapy!  YAY :)
Ok so here's a list of happy things!
PUPPIES!!!
Daises! what you can be sad when you have one...
Neon colors!
Cookies (made by mom!)
Not campus food! That's FREE!
Techno music... (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mjf_Uxuwxrc)
Friends and family!
Life :)
COLORING BOOKS!!!!!!!!!!!

If you have more to add feel free...I'm drawing a blank right now lol

Hope you have a happy day!!!!!!

Sunday mornings rain is falling...

Yes I am aware that it is 3:45 but I woke up at noon so it's still kinda morning for me.  Last night watched the back up plan, omg so good!  I think I went to bed at 2:30ish maybe idk.  I did get Domino's last night it was awesome and I colored a Disney princess picture for my bf.  Its so cute!

Talking about bfs, they are so adorable!  They care about you and understand you in ways you never even knew possible and yesterday he asked my opinion on promise rings, I almost died of happiness! (line from Pride and Prejudice!! So want to watch that movie now)  I told him that I loved the idea but I want to wait for a few years just so that it wont put a strain on our relationship.  (was that a good idea? I hope so)  But the thought was just so sweet, and it's moments like that that just make my day so much better and steals my breath away.

In other news I think I found my roommates for next year!  It's gonna be a 4 room suite with 2 baths and a common area!  So excited!!!!!

That's all for now! Leave me comments tell me whatca think about anything on my blogs life in general ask a question but i reserve the right to deny you an answer lol :)

Homecoming Weekend

So I've been away for a while but Ill catch you up real fast.  Me and my bf are good we worked everything out and I still love him as much or maybe even more than I ever did.  That test that was so horrible (and it was awful) was curved by 20% just to prove how bad it was the test had to be curved by 2 letter grades.  Anyway this curve brought me up to a B woo!  So not so mad now.
It is homecoming weekend, I was in the parade yesterday as a flapper woo!  It was a lot of fun.  I also went out last night to a dance party and danced for a while then me and my friends went to waffle house cuz what else do you do at 1:30 in the am?  Today is the game but it is cold and rainy and I am just getting over a cold so...guess who is not going? ME!!!

Around 6 today my friend will be getting back from work and me and him are going to watch a movie and order Domino's!! I have a coupon for a pick 3 items for $10!!! I'm so pumped for not campus food lol.

So now we are up to speed.  Hope you enjoy your day who ever you are! :)