Winter Break

I am officially done with this winter break thing. I want to see my friends and I'm really enjoying being able to see them but every time I come home my parents are jumping down my throat at every chance they get! I made on comment about something my mom made when she was experimenting in the kitchen like 3 years ago and she is still bringing it up and how I'm so horrible and all this shit.  My father will barely talk to me for reasons unknown and no one wants to do anything but yet when I decide that I don't want to sit around anymore and go do something they make a huge fuss about me leaving and not spending time with them...wtf? In my opinion they have no right to fuss because when I do try and make the effort to be with them they wont do anything or even talk and all this is doing is making me not want to visit and I am totally ok with waiting till spring break in March to come back again.

Answers

Well in my last post I asked a question about having a feeling in your gut about your significant other and as mama always said trust your gut.  She was right er.. I guess I was right, the boy dumped me and I never did get a clear reason why...O well I guess.

But I have had an epiphany over this break.  Have you ever seen Eat. Pray. Love.? Well in her rant near the beginning she was basically telling the story of my life and I have decided that that's not who I want to be so for the first time in my life not only have I come to terms with being single I also am enjoying it. :)  (Ill throw the clip in at the bottom of this post)

Well Happy Holidays :)

So I have finally sat down for the first time today...

I have been running around like a mad woman today! Going to classes, writing papers, taking breaks on fb lol, shopping for hall council events and I'm finally done for tonight minus a floor meeting in an hour.  And now that I'm sitting here the weight of the world has just hit me and all I want to do is cry for hours.  I am fairly certain that I am just one bad comment or snide remark from a full force emotional break down.  I'm questioning some of my decisions and realizing that my jealousy problems are far worse than I thought, I am stressed over finals and all the work that needs to be done this weekend and I am freaking out about some personal stuff too.

So yeah if you don't hear from me in a few days/weeks then it means i did have my break down and i imploded.

Freedom and New Beginings

The semester is almost over!!! I really cant believe that my first semester of college is almost over, it went by so fast and so much happened! 
Well for starters I'm uber sorry for taking so long to blog again lol. So lets see I'm gonna start with school.  I think the happiest moment of my life will be tomorrow at 4:30 because it will be my last POLS class with the jerk of the universe Neil.  I've finished my EDHD class and UNIV class because I don't have finals in those classes yay!!  I am feeling really accomplished, not only am i finished with my first semester but i am finishing with all A's and B's (in POLS).
Ok on to the more fun social stuff!  So after old bf i kinda had a fling, I thought it was going to turn into something, he even told me he wanted a relationship but I told him I wanted to wait a bit to make sure it was something I really wanted and wasn't me just needing someone after my breakup.  When i finally thought I was ready to be with him he changes his mind and now he barely talks to me. Now he is acting pissy so i have decided to stop caring all together.  If you are friends with me on fb my status currently is about him.  But on a happier note I have a friend, more than a friend he was one of my best friends all through high school.  Well i skyped him and almost cried my eyes out haha I told him everything that was bothering me especially boys lol, the worst part though was while I was talking to him I realized the one guy and just used me...what an ass lol.  The next day my friend told me that he was gonna visit me that coming weekend because he needed to cheer me up.  When he got here and I gave him a hug i could feel all the little broken pieces of my heart being picked up and for the first time in so long put back where they belonged.  He makes me so happy and I know he isn't trying to use me and he wont hurt me. 
Needless to say he is now my boyfriend and things are looking up. :)

I hope you all have a very merry holiday season and that you get everything you have wished for this year, I know I have :)